Since my last post there have been some big changes.
Gordon and I are pregnant!
On the coattails of our 5th anniversary, after nearly 2 years of trying, a lot of hoping and a little bit of crying we have been finally blessed.
With both of us facing fertility issues it seemed like a huge mountain to climb. We, however, never let it consume us completely. Our marriage, filled with friendship, laughter and love, was more than we needed. We much as we wanted a baby we knew that if it wasn't in the cards for us we would continue on our path and continue to love each other just as much.
So this pregnancy feels like nothing short of a miracle and something so much more than a blessing. We love him/her so much already; he/she consumes nearly every thought, every decision and every dream. That wonderful day of April 21 when we found out that our little one exists is the day that our hearts grew and made room for another.
We have been on such wonderful adventures already that this only feels like another, more glorious one. We are in awe of my slowly growing belly and the life growing within. Every change, every symptom, every new development has been wonderful as we've been going through it together.
I'm amazed at the changes I've seen in Gordon already. Always thoughtful, gentle, funny and protective, I knew that he would be a wonderful partner and (soon) a wonderful father. But come the positive pregnancy tests and it's brought out another side of him. I can't describe it, I can't put a name on it . . . I can only liken it to a man whose entire self-awareness has changed and grown to encompass the life that he has helped create. I feel that we've grown closer and look into each other's eyes differently knowing that we've created a life together.
This baby is so loved already, not just by us but by our friends and family.
To those who hoped and prayed with us, and stayed positive alongside us, we thank you. We're honored to call all of you family.